Hello again!

So, once again its been quite a while since my last post. And I'm aware no one reads this anyway, regardless, I've decided to write a quick post.

I just received my uni results for my first year and as I had expected I've failed. This came as no surprise to me, I'd actually done slightly better in some modules anyway. However, I'm very much looking forward to starting at my new university in September beginning my new course. Bring on Biomedical Science in Leeds!

I am also starting to make a lot of changes in my life, Starting with improving my health and fitness. I want to be happy with my body and will not be satisfied until I am, its hard, but my efforts seem to be having good effect. I just hope I can keep it up in Leeds. Everything is easier at home.



I can't wait to go to Lourdes in 3 weeks as well, its so great just to escape from the hassle of normal life for a week and take time out to focus on what is really important. Its always an amazing experience and I tend to come back feeling so refreshed at peaceful. Its going to be a slightly different pilgrimage than previous ones, not least because now we're the older volunteers but it will no doubt still be hugely rewarding and enjoyable.

I'll probably post again once I'm back but for now...

Peace Out! :)

I'm on a roller coaster that only goes up, friend.

I'm feeling a lot better now than I did last week. Talked out my worries with certain people and its made me feel much more positive about everything. I was reminded of why I decided to choose this course in the first place, and that I am my own worst enemy when it comes to achieving my goals. I whole-heartedly thank these people as without them I'd still be moping around with a face like a slapped arse. They know who they are.

People may be wondering where the hell I got such an odd title for today's post from. On Friday I read a book called The Fault in Our Stars and it truly touched me - you can tell it was a good book - I read it in a day! The book is about a young girl named Hazel Grace who has cancer. I won't say much more in case you wish to read it but there a a few moments in the book that made me tear up, not for the typical "its a book about kids with cancer" reasons either. This was an amazing book, infact the only one that has ever made me 100% happy and then within minutes have me in pieces on the floor. There were a lot of moments in this book where I just had to stop and take a few minutes to let what I'd just read sink in, this wasn't a typical cancer book -most books about terminal illness are blatantly written/intended to make you cry but this wasn't one of them. I want EVERYONE to read this book.

Just realised that in 8 weeks time I will be an Auntie again, this is just too exciting! I can't wait to go to the hospital and hold my baby nephew or niece for the first time. I know I already am an Auntie but we didn't actually meet Kadie until she was 4 months old with her not actually being my brothers little girl and all so my family missed out on that experience. I really hope the baby is a boy, partly because my brother wants a boy, but mainly because I HATE the name they have chosen for if its a girl. Indie Autum is just not a good name! Aidan James however is beautiful, really can't imagine myself shoulding "Kadie, Idie!" if I take them too the park or something. Not good.

Anyway, I need to go and make myself some tea. So...

Peace Out :)

Its never too late to be what you might have been.

I haven't blogged in quite a long time, I suppose that's mainly because my life has been going pretty fast recently, what with finishing my A Levels and then going on to university. In fact, I think its gone too fast. I'm living in a place that I don't want to be, with people I don't want to be with, doing a course I don't want to do. Thats pretty much a complete opposite to what I was told university would be like.

I was told that it would be the best time of my life, I'd make loads of new friends because I'd have so much in common with the people on my course. But the fact of the matter is, I haven't. I've made one decent friend and he is moving to bloody Hull Uni next year (clearly I'm not the only one that thinks Salford is shit). University is such a contrast to college, I've gone from having a huge group of friends to one decent one. The friendships we made at All Saints are so strong and took so long to form that everything else just seems like utter shit in comparison. As for the course, I always knew that applying to do physics was a big risk, I mean I know I'm not great at maths but I love physics so much that I had to give it a go. I'd have regretted it for the rest of my life and I know I would. But now I'm here and I've tried it, I've realised I couldn't have made a bigger mistake. I can't do the maths side of the course, not without and insane amount of work and help anyway, and I don't want to spend the next 4 years on a course that requires this. I wish I'd never gone through UCAS extra, I wish I'd never applied to Salford, I wish I'd gone to Man Met or Huddersfield as I'd planned to in the first place.

My plan as it stands is to complete this year, drop out of Salford, maybe have a year out and then either go on to do a degree in Human Biology or go straight into a teaching degree, after all, I know thats where I want to end up anyway. Its the only thing I've ever been sure of since starting this whole university process.

Anyway, I'm going to shut up now or I could be here all night typing this out. I could probably write 2000 words with no amount of difficulty.

Peace Out :)

Rant time!

Urgh, In a well bad mood today... I actually feel ill I'm that stressed.

I want it to be christmas now, so sick of college!

I'm sat here writing this in the library, nice and loud in here as per usual. Again I'm pretty sure its for silent study. I'm only writing this because I can't concentrate on my work. (I have headphones in and can still here them! Stupid lower sixth)

Got so much shit to do and majorly cba doing anything!

I'll stop moaning now and go do some work I spose... personal statement or physics? hmmm....

I'd actually rather do physics work, that just shows how much I'm struggling with my personal statement. not even sure I want to go to uni any more!

Peace out :)

Lourdes 2010

Lourdes 2010

Well where to start…

Lourdes this year was the most amazing experience of my life. It has completely changed who I am/was as a person. I went there with some fantastic people and met many more, some who were just truly inspirational to all who met them. Memories of certain people I cared for this year will stay with me forever. It’s amazing to realise that even though I spent such a small amount of time with somebody they have entirely changed my perspective on life; I am now so much more appreciative of the things I have been blessed with especially my family and friends.

I learnt this year that it does not do to dwell on the past as it is exactly that, it is/has past, there is nothing that can be done about it now, it’s gone, I must live for today, live for the future.

I also learnt an awful lot about myself as a person this week. I found the old me again, the one that has been desperate to get out for the past few years. She is back, and most importantly she is happy! And I now sound really gay talking about myself in the 3^rd person in a rather pathetic way, but it’s all so true.

It’s officially my favourite place in the world. The past week has completely changed my approach to life. Going to Lourdes teaches you many things, Most of all to be thankful for everything you have as some people have so much less than you. It shows us how much we all take for granted.

The effect Lourdes has had on me this year is hard to describe, I’ve said a few things but that is only the beginning. I feel so at peace now, my mind is finally a nice place to be.

And I’ve just realise how depressing this whole blog has been… and I don’t care because Its truly how I feel J

Peace out! J

FAIL

I am absolutely sick of the site of folders, textbooks, paper, pens, post-it notes and highlighters!

Seriously, the sooner Wednesday afternoon comes the better, I will FINALLY be free until January! :) I have once again realised I've messed up, thinking I would be fine revising RE in 4 days, well.. I won't, I have covered 3 theories today, and have about 8 left, to do tonight and tomorrow... not gunna happen!!!

I've come to the decision that if I Fail its no big deal, just re-sit the year, I reffuse to get my self in a state about all this exam crap, once RE is over I will be happy... wayy to much to know for one exam!

Anyway, back to the revision!

Peace out! :)

Hey Blog Buddies!

Note to self: NEVER believe people when they say they will go to a lesson when they don't have too... other wise you end up sat there, on your own with your teacher for an hour getting hammered with questions you don't know the answer too!! LEARN from my mistakes people!

I have had a weird day today, but a good one, in parts (Worked sucked as per usual!)

Beth Austin is a legend :) Just thought I'd mention that one... only she could make Free Willy sound so wrong in many ways! I love you mann!

This week has made me realise a lot. For starters, some things just aren't worth getting so stressed about!

I have taken up an new approach to life, take each day as it comes and stop moaning! It only makes matters worse :) I wish other people to do the same! My actual approach has been "you know what, f##k it" but I wasn't going to post that at first, its a good philosophy to take though, gets your frustration out and makes you feel more at ease about the situation.

I have realised other things this week, like how amazing all my friends are... there are so many of us all in one social group and we all get on, no pathetic arguments, no bitching (that I'm aware of) we are so God damn awesome! I look forward to spending another year with them all :)

anyway, thats me done for the evening!

Peace Out!